I’ve never had my heart beat so fast, I could still smell a part of him on me and I can’t stop thinking about him and the way he looks but he can’t be the one for me . I’ve tried and tried to be perfect even without reward I tried to be perfect , I have no will to ever get married or have kids at all anymore that’s a life I truly wanted but don’t even wish to see anymore how hard would it be to have a child with someone you did not plan with before? I only planned with him so having kids is out of the question , my dad said “life moves on and it’ll keep moving on just be strong”, my life was to precious for me to take away so I will be strong , I will proceed.
